I have been an emotional roller coaster and zombie the last 3 days. Caylee-Grace got worse each night. Tuesday was ok I got her up at 4am to feed her and got ready for work. Wednesday she got up at 3am so I was up for the day then. I have cried worse each day. Thursday night she got up at 2:30 but I managed to sleep for another hour before getting up. Friday was the worst day ever. I cried the majority of the day. I have felt awful. I called and check on her several times and would talk to her on the phone and cry harder. Last night I went to bed at 8:20 and she didn't wake up until 4am so I feel like a new person again. I feed her and got back to sleep at 4:50 and slept again until 8 am this morning. I was suppose to work today but I called and told my boss that couldn't happen that I had to caught up on some sleep or I wasn't going to make it next week.

I sure hated that I missed the Elders Brunch this morning but I seriously couldn't have made it. I had to get some sleep. I just can't work, spend time with Caylee-Grace, try to keep house up and keep my sanity without sleep. I have been emotional eating too so I have gained 4 lbs this week. I think I must have ate a half a bag of chocolate Thursday night. It did make me feel better for a bit. Only got to exercise Thursday so I know that isn't helping either. Maybe one day I will get it together and have some kind of schedule or system going on. I'm going to spend today and tomorrow playing with my precious baby and sleeping when she does. I got mother to make my biscuits and take them with the juice up to the church this morning for the brunch. Hope they had a great time. I really hate I couldn't go but I know they will understand.

Please continue to keep me in your prayers. I need strength. I didn't really think it was going to be this bad but it has been awful.